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Ever wondered when you have a slight interest in someone, how will it feels like . Well, I didn't know i would like you. I didn't know.. Whats the story?here goes.

13 Feburary, the day I enlisted, we all had to gather at Kranji Camp 3 (yew tee mrt ) for our enlistment area since we are mono-intake and go through a period of 1 month. Let's skip to the part, Going to and fro from home to kranji camp 3, there are 2 reporting timing that we have to report by, one is 0730, and other is 0745. So every different week, we have to report by those timing... 0730, i will reach by 0710. 0745, i will reach by 0725...

So around the 3rd week, i've always notice this girl waiting for her friend exactly at 0715 standing at the same corner, wearing JC clothes, black toms, braided hair, looking at her iPhone. She captured my attention ever since then. But, it was only during the timing where i came at 0715. I find her quite attractive. I don't know what made me so into her, but ... i guess it was those first sight thing. Around the 3rd week, i was glad that i was in the 0730 slot, so i had the chance to always see her in the morning. Yearning to know which school she is, i asked my bmt friends what school she is, and their answer? Nanyang JC... I started hanging around serangoon more often cause i have friends there, passing by Nanyang JC, hoping to see her again after my camp, but ...no.... I didn't ..

There was another time, I was returning from yew tee mrt towards marina bay line, I thot i saw her ! I really thought so ! she was wearing black when she boarded from Khatib... But, I hadn't had any courage to see whether its her because of my significant hair(botak) . Therefore, I didn't look at whether isit her and just let it pass.

I had this thinking, i didn't wanted this opportunity to pass by... What will i do if i just didn't take that one effort and let it pass. So when i was in camp lecture, I brainstorm w my friends, telling them i like this girl and how should i garner the courage to ask. David(not too sure) told me, drop a note or wallet or something, then cook up a conversation with her. But i was thinking, what if she didn't, what if she just pass me back and walk off. Wouldn't it be....a wasted opportuninity. I had consider the idea of asking her number straight, but. Well, i honestly never really tried it before and i just didn't wanna scare her away. It wasn't easy to really like someone and i didn't want to just ruin it by my impatience. So...I thought it long and hard, long and hard, and decided to write her a letter instead. Which gives her the choice of whether to add me or not.

So i met up with Joseph, and went to AMK to bought a panda letter plus paper. I consider many thoughts and words so as not to frightenend her, before i could come up with a finalize copy. Then I ask Joseph to help me write, cause ik my handwriting is the WORSTTT~. heh.

So on one day, if i'm not wrong is a Wednesday, I had to report at 0745 at the Yew Tee Mrt, so taking into consideration the time that i've to change and such. I planned that i go down in Outside Clothes instead of Army clothes. So I went down early like 0700 and met Wilson at the MRT so he can see how is her reaction like...
On the way towards Yew Tee MRT, I saw Syafiq and i was like "shittttttt, danggggg, he sees me in CV, how am i going to explain" So i just said i was going to change at the toilet there cause i later wanna go out. Heh. and i was really nervous on that day.

So I met Wilson at 0700 at the MRT , and knowing which way she comes out from, its always on the right side of Yew Tee MRT. So i stood wearing my CV clothes, NERVOUS. my Heart was like pumping non-stop and it was dumb.. So, i thought in my mind, get it over and done with, if i don't give this letter, i will give up every chance and i might not see her again. But if i do, I might have a chance of communicating with her.

From a far distance, the same girl, braid her, black toms, and JC uniform...was walking towards my direction to the MRT. I plucked up all courage, everything inside and out, and walk towards to pass her the note. She looked at me with those eyes, those eyes that was the tired-est but sweet eyes, I smiled at her and said " this is for you " , her first reaction was to reject me, she was shocked , stumbled by a stranger who approach her and pass her a note. Then i pass her the note and say " just take, its nothing one" heh. Then she took and walk off where her friend was there and they started taking mrt. Wilson told me, she just kept the letter and didn't open it. My mind was telling me, believe in it, just hope she replies in fb or number.

So ... Every since that day where i gave her the note, I was always around Serangoon Nanyang JC , asking my friends on twitter for the NYJC year book. So I had a friend who replied me that he might have a friend who have, but sadly she doesn't have the newest series. Coincidentally, my BMT friend who came in the same CMPB with me, was from NYJC. So i ask him, to bring the year book asap when he comes. I took the book, sat down at mess room but just couldn't find her in yearbook 2011/2012. Thinking about it, i just guess, she was from Year 1, and year 1 book hasn't been released yet. I Never gave up, slowly, March pass by, April pass by... I check my FB add friends time to time, waiting for her probably to add me. But it wasn't to any avail..

It was this one day during mid-may , where i was at Hougang Mall, going to find my friends to eat western food. And this is when i saw a name, who added me. I was wondering, why would anyone add me, and the name was the first i saw . and..
It was Her.
As soon as i saw her profile picture, i look at others and yes, it was the same girl I saw during 3 months back. I was really elated. My smile was just there, it was planted there... no matter whether my friends came late that day, or anything.

For 2-3 days after we added, i didn't had any courage to talk to her but just to wait for her to take the first move. But i thot, this is stupig, why would she take the first move. So i went up, and chatted with her on Facebook. Yes, finally. So..we had a really great chat every day, till now.. It has been already for 4 months that we had chatted non-stop. We chatted on Facebook, then proceeded on to Whatsapp. I was happe, even now . Heh. I never regretted passing the note to her.

I thought, it was time that we should meet up since we've always been chatting for around 3 months already. So i ask her out on a saturday one time. That day, she couldn't make it, and i was quite disappointed. But nevertheless, we still have time. So i just waited for another time to ask her. and yes, i met her on next Wednesday( 10/07/13) . Knowing that she loves sushi alot. I spent quite a while to find the best sushi and my reviews was (Itacho,Sakae) . She plays pool for the first time at yishun safra too, so I chose Marina square as a meet-up. Cause theres Sakae sushi ! and the pool there hasn't had much punks. So on Wednesday, I prepared everything and make a reservation that i need before i went down to city hall mrt, then to marina square. The first thought when i saw her back, she was carrying a red bag( fav color) , her red sports shoes ( supposedly to make her taller ) and her braid hair...
Once, she ask me before how i know about braid hair such as fish tail and waterfall, but i never ended up telling you and pretended that i've STM. But, infact, i do remember that question and no, the answer is not because of my other ex or anything close to that line. It was actually cause i wanted to know what braid hair she had so i could have a clearer view and picture on what she braid your hair. But honestly, I do like those braid hair, haha.

Anyway, not to wonder off topic, When i first tap her shoulder and said hi, Her face was the epic, she was awkward, her talking also became awkward. haha. Yes, i like that day, i really enjoyed and i can still remember where we walk from there. She was wearing school uniform so i can't bring her into the pool area. So we walk pass sakae, and asked if she wanna eat sushi . I had actually made reservation for 2 at 7pm, but i guess she doesn't realise it, so....well..sad . haaha but it's okay. i enjoyed it equally much.

First meet up gradually have the second meet up, and the third, and fourth. So as of now, i've met her for the Fifth time already, First to Marina Square, Second to CCK/JEM/JCube/IMM, Third to Jurong Point/Pioneer/ Fourth to Clementi/Dhoby/cityhall/centurysquare , Fifth to Orchard, TheSail, Marinabaysands..

Sixth Meet up is supposed to be the upcoming weekend where we will meet, and hopefully it goes along smoothly. Up till now, it's only the fifth, but i just felt like i've met her for so long. Even the time when she drew my hand with the nail thingy at Dhoby and the star that she drew when we are at the NLB, I was sooooo lazy to rub it off and somehow it was still there.

Today, 12 August, for some reason, i just felt weird... my Opinion ? I felt that I don't deserve you.. even as a friend, maybe someone who is much better then me. I just felt that i'm just someone who pass by in your life and will leave any time sooner... Idk, I just have this feeling .. weird me..

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